"...Life is unfair,kill yourself or get over it..."

I can't quite remember how long I have been mourning (and moaning) now but it must have been a month or so now.Time really flies and sometimes,things don't really heal the way I expect them to.But enough is just about enough.Towards the end of last week,I told myself that I will have to stop wallowing in bitterness and anger and pick myself up again before the negativity sucks me into a place where I can never recover.

I set myself a deadline.That by that time,no matter what happens...even if my heart is still in smithereens,I will not look back and think about someone again.And I will not think about a relationship that is past its shelf-life.That date is 1 November 2005.

That is tomorrow.

Technically,today is my last day for moping.For tomorrow,whatever feelings of anger and disappointment I may retain about this failure will have to dissolve themselves.Fact is it's easier said than done.But oftentimes,the hard(er) thing to do is also the right thing to do.So bite the bullet,bugger.Accept the reality.Admit to the (silly?) mistakes and live with them.Because whatever we choose to do,we also must have the heart to live with the consequences as well.The successes and the failures,particularly the latter because they are harder to swallow.

Am I better?Sometimes I am,mostly not.But one month is a long time to be down.That's 1/12 of a year.And it's 1/12 of a year too long.

PS: A word of thanks to all the people who have shown an understanding and tolerance towards me while I was at my deplorable worst.I,of course,can't guarantee it'd never happen again but I'd try my best.

Batman spun on 2:15 PM.