Monday, July 11, 2005
An Open Letter - Part One

"Believe me
It's time to tell my friends I love them
They deserve more
Than hasty delivered words of kindness..."

Words from Gene's "We Could Be Kings".

And these are my words to some of my friends,while I still have a chance of saying them...even if they may not read these words:

Danny Boy:

Dearest Danny Boy,

I wish I know the answer to the question as to whether you are gay or not.I hope you are just a confused heterosexual but whatever the truth is,you are one of my best friends and you know that.Maybe I am still incredulous that you are probably homosexual,but friendship has nothing to do with sexual orientations.

What happened to you?Didn't you used to fall in love with a girl?Why have you fallen so far?Weren't you the one who brought me back to Christ?Weren't you the one who always told me to explore my relationship with God?Where are you now with God?

But who am I to talk like this?I have fallen as far,if not further than you have.I have no right.And I'm sure you're happy with who you are and what you are.You do not need words from me that doesn't help you at all.

I wish you all the best.I'd always help you,just as you've always helped me.I thank God for putting you in my life and I treasure our friendship.No matter what.

Yours sincerely,

XXXX

Beast:

Dearest Beast,

My brother,my good brother.And I do not call someone my brother likely.There are all of three persons I would call brother in this world.One's my real life brother of course,the other two's Bishop and you.How long have I known you guys now?22 years?That's more than a lifetime for some people.

I thank you for your love and concern for me,man.You'd always call me and talk to me when I tell you I feel bad or depressed and always offer encouraging words,never said anything bad to me that may hurt me.Thanks,really thanks for all the advice and company.You know I've done the same for you too,right?That's what brothers are for.

Still,I worry about you.You should get a girl.You have an infectious personality and getting a girl to love you should pose no problem.And I think you need one.Has the girl of your dreams passed you by?The one you told me and Bishop about?Haven't I encouraged you repeatedly to go after her?What's with you,man?A tiger with us and a mouse with her.That's not right,brother.

I guess I have to keep encouraging you to take action.Someone,somehow,sometime.You need a girl and you know it.

Finally,thanks for all the days of booze,pool and regional short trips,man.With you,things are always fun...now that I can't rely on Bishop much anymore since he has gotten his girl.Still,I hope that soon,I can't rely on you similarly as well.

Yours sincerely,

XXXX

Bishop:

Dearest Bishop,

Between Beast and you,I guess I've always worried less about you.Unlike Beast,you were always grounded,very logical.Maybe too logical.Too strait-laced.I think your girl,Eiffel,will sort you out on this trait.I am glad you have her.The two of you are good together.I hope the two of you will eventually marry.Seriously,hope so.

And thanks,brother,for taking me into your confidence.Telling me stuff you wouldn't tell anybody else first (or ever).Always consulting me on my opinion on everything...especially on girls and Eiffel...and football!That's treating me like a brother,man.That's trust.I am just sorry I haven't really shared my private life with you.Beast holds my confidence on that more.I just think you should spend time with your girl instead of worrying about me.

You are on the right track,brother.You are.Thank you for all the time you spent with me,man.Thank you.

Yours sincerely,

XXXX

Celina:

Dearest Celina,

Knowing you through my blog have been one of the true privileges of writing this blog.I kind of treat you like the little sister I never have.And you know what I appreciate about you?

I think you are a kind-hearted soul,with no lack of love and strength.Especially strength.I don't know how you get through what you have sometimes but I admire you for it.And I'd love to help you in any way I can.

Celina,you are still young.So young with so much to learn and so much potential.You will find your way,find what you want and then you will blossom.I guarantee you on that.Do not be too anxious with love and life.There's still a long way to go.And if you fall down or have your heart broken,talk to me about it.I know what it's like.

Take care,girl.

Yours sincerely,

XXXX

Jen:

Dearest Jen,

Where are you,Jen girl?Didn't I ask you to call you when you return from the US?It's been three months or more since then and I haven't heard a word from you.Do you know I am worried about you,Jen?I hope you are doing fine.And if you are really going to Birmingham,please tell me about it!

Jen,you are one of those people whom I could never stop worrying about.Your love affair with that Indian boyfriend of yours.Is it on or off?Doesn't it hurt to be trapped in it so badly?You always told me that you wanted to break it off,Jen,but you had never seemed able to.I wish you did.Maybe it'd cause you less pain.

I always thank you,Jen for the way we share our experiences and thoughts with each other.How we would always encourage each other and honestly evaluate each other's situations.Thanks for everything.When I think about it,I even amazed how we got to know each other and remained close.It's quite remarkable actually.

Talk to me,Jen,when you have the time.I could never find you...or maybe I could but just didn't bother to.We should talk.

Yours sincerely,

XXXX

Wingman:

Dearest Wingman,

Hello,mate,it's always been a pleasure knowing you.I think of everyone that I know,you're the most well-balanced,finest specimen of how a guy should be.And I congratulate you on your upcoming marriage.You and Ire make a great couple,indeed I would deem the two of you one of the model couples I have known.

I really cannot say anything more than to thank you for your friendship,Wingman.Your logical,thoughtful side and your playful side always makes such an interesting combination.It's easy to like you.In fact,anyone would,you charming bloke.God bless you,my friend.

Yours sincerely,

XXXX

Yuen:

Dearest Yuen,

Hey,my good mate,like Wingman,I thank you for your friendship and the times when I've confided in you and you lent me a ear.Never judging,always understanding.I've never always done the same for you but you know me.I do care.And you're a good friend to me.Always have been.

Someday,as you say,you'd go back to Malaysia to pursue the next part of your life.And you said that you've been away from home for too long.I guess I understand.There's always a time when we need to go back home.But I still hope to see you often when that happens.

And get a girl,mate.You've been resisting it forever.When is any time ever a good enough time for you?You and your excuses.You're a hardworking,honest bloke and there'd be plenty of girls out there who appreciate it.

Yours sincerely,

XXXX

Elle:

Dearest Elle,

I haven't known you for a very long time but as time went along,I've become more and more comfortable with you.You know,I'd have entertained thoughts of wooing you before but eventually I guess I am doing the right thing by not doing so.Being very comfortable with someone doesn't have to equate being that person's other half.I certainly won't miscontrue that.

But Elle,I do have to say you are a lovely girl.Honest to goodness,lovely.I think in the past,I have occasionally been careless with you and hurt you.I'm sorry.Very sorry.But you understand the way I am.I mean no harm.

I love to stay good friends with you,Elle.I guess that's as far as things will go.If I was another guy,I'd chase you but not when I'm Archangel.

Yours sincerely,

XXXX


This post ends here because it is but part one.I still have things to say to other people.That includes Jubilee,Colossus,Jean Grey,Prof X amongst others and two very important girls in my life:Snow and Elva.