Monday, October 11, 2004
Getting Mellow or What???

First off,in view of my horrific failure to remember the divine Rachel Weisz and Russian Tennis Nymphlet Maria Sharapova on my list,I have to review my list of Top 10 Hottest Women In My World.Besides her,I have also decided to include the beautiful Taiwanese model, Lin Zhiling(林志玲)in my list.Of course, certain people have had to make way for these two inclusions and they're Salam Hayek,Beyonce Knowles and Miss Chinese Gal.I'm so sorry to push you out of the list,Miss Hougang but including you in the list was never realistic...but it was my list anyway.You are still hot though.As for how come Miss Hayek gets bummeed from number 3 to out...well,I really only included her for her fantastic body which is even better than that of Monica Bellucci's.How many women in the world can claim to have that?Not many.So here's the revised list:

1) Monica Bellucci
2) Charlize Theron
3) Rachel Weisz
4) Mika Nakashima
5) Zhang Ziyi
6) Aishwarya Rai
7) Lin Zhiling
8) Mischa Barton
9) Angelina Jolie
10) Maria Sharapova

Poor Miss Hayek must be dazed and confused at why I did such a horrible thing to her.To bum her out of the list for Miss Weisz,a Taiwanese she probably never heard of and a Russian teenager(don't accuse me of being a pedophile,Harrison Ford dates women 30 years his junior.What about Faye Wong?Isn't she a pedophile too?).It's alright,Salma.If you are displeased,get you agent to contact me via email and we can have a lovely dinner to discuss things over.Right?RIIIGHT.

What was I talking about getting mellow in my blog title?Yes,at the ripe old age of 27,I have found myself becoming more and more mellow as the minutes go by.It's horrible.Like I'm going into mid-life and a lot of things no longer matter as much.Oh wait,I am going into a midlife in a few years time.Ok right.But it seems like I've had all my ambitions and passions doused from within me and I'm happy to just cruise along in a way I wouldn't expect myself to a couple of years back.Contentment is blunting my edge,or whatever I have left of it,in a way I didn't expect.

It's happening all around me,this mellowing.In the things I do,the way I react to things,the songs I listen to,the way I interact with people...etc.Everything.It's like midlife has come to me early and I didn't even see it coming.Actually,I am surprised I am already 27.You mean I am 27?Wasn't it not too long ago when I was in JC,going to lectures and having a crush on this girl called Wendy?Wait,that was in 1995.Nine years ago.Gulp.

Anyway,the changes that's occurring...I used to want to go out at least once a week...to do whatever I may fancy.Now?Home is where the heart is.I can not go out for a few weeks on end and don't even realise it.I think it's time for my monthly booze session with my secondary school mates again.Will call them out this Friday.Can't even remember when I last met them though it can't be more than a couple of months back.

The way I react.I used to get angry and stay angry for over a day.A few days in fact.Now?I usually cool down over the course of a few hours.Even when met with the nonsense of the likes of Banshee.It's not a bad thing actually.I never had too much of a temper anyway,if at all but when I do get angry(it takes quite a lot to get me angry,you know.),it's to the proportions of The Hulk.You don't want to see the green giant coming out.It's ugly...butt naked ugly.

And the songs I listen to.I used to rock to the sounds of the best rock bands around.Bands who have a thing to say.Primal Scream,The Smiths,Nirvana,Pearl Jam,The Verve,Radiohead,Beyond amongst others.Now?I actually bought Phil Collins latest compilation:Love Songs.And I am listening to Jacky Cheung right now.And I love Mika Nakashima and jazz.What the?It's a relief sometimes I still get perked up by the sounds of bands like Muse and Black Rebel Motorcycle Club but I don't listen to new bands by and large.To me,they lack ambition and a understanding of real life that is happening and taking place around us.Sum 41 might think they are punk but they don't hold a candle to Nivana,who revived punk from the likes of the Sex Pistols and the Clash.Bands like Coldplay might sound like Radiohead but they are so meat and potatoes,they can never conjure up the abstract lyrical imagery that the Heads can Try The Heads' "The Bends" or "Ok Computer" albums for what The Heads are capable of doing.Sheer class.Linkin park thinks they have angst?Try the Verve's "Bittersweet Symphony"(which is my favourite song of all time by the way).That's angst.With ambition and the recognition of the enormity of life.

Even the way I interact with people.I used to be much more acid-tongued and caustic.Now,I rib people much more gently and don't mind getting made fun of in return.In fact,being self-deprecating is quite a nice thing actually.Makes me realise not to take myself too seriously.The world will be here with or without me tomorrow.It might even become a better place for all I know but life goes on.Don't be too precious.I've met too many of these people.Who thinks only terms of the things people can do for them and about their own circumstances and lives.Sometimes I wonder who they think they are.Live for others and others will live for you.Don't worry so much about what will happen to yourself.Spare a thought for others every once in a while.Short while.

It's funny that I've been listening to The Verve and The Smashing Pumpkins recently.Both seem to indicate the passing of an era since both are essentially 90's bands and are both now defunct.No band can ever recreate the existenial angst and ambitions of Wigan greats Verve who imploded while the Pumpkins quitted because they felt they couldn't make a difference to a music scene dominated by the likes of Britney.The extinguishing of the fires in their bellies for both bands.For good.Kinda like me.

Heck.I think I've written quite a bit so I should end here.It's past 11 now,OMG!Time flies.I am gotta continue listening to Jacky Cheung.Come to think of it,even Jacky has changed.He once screamed something like "忘记你我做不到",now his latest song is called "Sorry".His songs used to be full of gut-wrenching emotions as he wraps his best lung-busting baritone vocals tightly around the lyrics.Now he whispers and even slightly hums them.The technique is there but the emotions have toned down enormously.Even pop-stars mellow with age.

Well,I guess it won't be long before I go from listeniong to Primal Scream to Rick Astley then...altogether now...

"Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna turn around and desert you

Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you..."

CHEESY!