Tuesday, November 23, 2004
Stuck In A Moment

I’m not afraid of anything in this world
There’s nothing you can throw at me that I haven’t already heard
I’m just trying to find a decent melody
A song that I can sing in my own company

You’ve got to get yourself together
You’ve got stuck in a moment
And now you can’t get out of it
Don’t say that later will be better
Now you’re stuck in a moment
And you can’t get out of it

I will not forsake the colours that you bring
The nights you filled with fireworks,they left you with nothing
I am still enchanted by the light you brought to me
I listen through your ears,through your eyes I can see

And you are such a fool
To worry like you do
I know it’s tough
And you can never get enough
Of what you don’t really need now,my,oh my

You’ve got to get yourself together
You’ve got stuck in a moment
And you can’t get out of it
Oh love,look at you now
You’ve got yourself stuck in a moment
And you can’t get out of it

I was unconscious,half asleep
The water is warm till you discover how deep
I wasn’t jumping,for me it was a fall
It’s a long way down to nothing at all

You’ve got to get yourself together
You’ve got stuck in a moment
And you can’t get out of it
Don’t say that later will be better
Now you’re stuck in a moment
And you can’t get out of it

And if the night runs over
And if the day won’t last
And if our way should falter
Along the stony pass
It’s just a moment
This time will pass


I'm still to get my hands on the latest U2 LP "How To Dismantle An Atomic Bomb" so I've had to contend with the unsatisfying "All That You Can't Leave Behind".As can be seen,I never really liked "All...",instead of the "return to Joshua Tree heyday" album that it was hyped up to be,I found it to be nothing but a watered-down version of past glories with sporadic Edge-like guitars thrown in to con hardcore fans.So in due dilligence,I never listened to most of the songs in detail.Which must be why I missed out on "Stuck In A Moment (You Can't Get Out Of)" because I found it to be too much of a wimpsy song.

I have no idea why I suddenly liked it now.But the lyrics just came out to me in new light last night as I was listening to it because everything seems to be stuck in a moment for me right now.A moment I can't get out of.And I can't say "later will be better" because everything runs in an infinite loop that goes round again and again and again.Later is just a re-occurrance of what happened a few days/weeks back.Like a broken record that wouldn't stop.Imagine listening to the same song over and over and over again.One day,you'd just like to cover up your ears and block it out...

This morning when I just got into the office and was settling down to switch on my computer,I heard Storm call out to Jubilee and said something how our department just disgraced ourselves again,showing our ineptitude in front of outsiders.But what's fresh?This seemed to me nothing but history repeating itself and I was pretty sure a whole session of griping would go on again.It was good that I have a CD to reacquaint myself with.

Let me first admit something.I am a griper myself.No doubt about that.I gripe about the world,the society,the state of the modern rock music,myself and the office.Actually I've stopped griping about the office in-depth for quite a while now.If one had noticed.Until now,that is.I had grown so damn tired of this office and all its problems and shortcomings.Until I elect to pluck up the courage to leave this place or somewhat change the conditions,I have to live with what's here.That's that.Griping wastes energy and offers no solutions,although it offers a vent of letting out frustration.Even if it's not a very satisfying one.

The problems,processes and other sh*te that exists here was I guess,more or less,in place before I joined this place.The defending of turfs,the way information doesn't really flow...etc.Things could have been better before God came in,I don't know,maybe they were.Maybe God just have a way of making things worse.Maybe things will get better when he leaves.I don't know.Maybe Rogue's incompetence is ruining our branch.Maybe it'd be better if she goes away.I don't know either.But I do know I am tired of discussing and hearing it.That I am certain of.

Sometimes I am surprised by my fellow X-Men and how they could continually get wind up by the system here.Maybe I'm just jaded.Or maybe because I think I'm just hearing the same things over and over again...because the root causes remain the same.It's like Groundhog Day.Where you live your life over the same day and the same things happen.In the movie,by the umpteen time Bill Murray encountered the same event,he reacted to the same events without much thought nor feeling before slowly taking the joy to repeatedly doing the same things.

Is it sad to deterioate to state where you can just go with the flow and grin and bear with it?Or is it sad to rant without chance of changing anything?What gives.

It's just a moment.
This time will pass.